I’m sorry it has taken me so long to post and reply to all your questions about book deals etc., but I was determined this week to rest and spend MUCH needed quiet time with my family. Thank you for your patience.
It was evident during my preparations for the conference that satan (I made his name lowercase on purpose…it wasn’t a typo; he doesn’t deserve a capitol letter) did NOT want me to attend, OR finish my book proposal. 2 days before my flight I honestly thought I was going to have to cancel the trip…but God intervened in a mighty way. I’m not going to go into much detail on the attacks that my family suffered during the 3 weeks before the Conference, except to say that rebuking satan in THE GREAT NAME OF JESUS was the ONLY reason I believe we made it through. We really felt your prayers, and they gave us strength to call the devil what he really is, a liar and a loser.
The conference was unlike anything I’ve ever attended in my life. Imagine over 800 women all in the writer/speaker field and yet not an ounce of competition in the group, not even a hint of it. It was so completely refreshing to my soul. There was such unity and grace in that place. I needed to see this and believe again that God’s girls could work together in one accord. There was such beauty, freedom, and healing in this for me. The women were actually FOR each other, rooting each other on, celebrating success of others because we know it is NOT our success that we’re after, but an advancement for the kingdom of God that we are longing for. Each and every lady I met had an authentic heart to serve Christ, and a genuine desire to help equip women to love and lead others to Jesus.
I am so blessed to have made amazing lifelong godly friendships on this trip with women who are trustworthy and likeminded. Woman who have one goal in mind…to make Jesus FAMOUS. Women who like me understand what this calling means and how much it costs. I met so many women who have faced the same hard questions from their family or friends asking “who are you to write and publish a book, or who are you to speak?” It is so nice to not feel alone in this calling…to be in a room with other ladies who say “me too!”
Listen, I’ve been battling ALL those questions. I’ve been wrestling with God because believe me, it would be so much easier NOT to write, NOT to speak. Besides…Who am I??? Who am I to think I am worthy of a calling such as this? Well let me tell you who I am….I am no one; I am unworthy; I am imperfect; I make mistakes; I will never know enough; and I will never have it all together. BUT GOD…God loves me anyway. Despite myself and my flaws, He supplies me with His mercy and grace. His love for ALL of us is never ending. I may be a nobody to others, but I am somebody to Jesus, and His opinion of me is all I need to be concerned about.
So let me encourage you, if God has given you a heart to reach the lost, don’t look to others for permission. Listen to the voice who calls you; He will equip you. Big or small no calling goes unnoticed by Jesus. He sees you friend, and YOU are a somebody.
The classes at She Speaks were phenomenal. I learned so much! I am so very thankful for all the keynote speakers and teachers who poured a wealth of knowledge into our hearts and minds. They were such incredible examples and humble servants of God.
I was truly undone by God’s amazing love for me. He ministered to my heart in such big ways. The one phrase that kept repeating to me throughout the conference was that “I am fully loved, not in part.” I want YOU to know this too, and feel it deeply. No matter where you are, what your circumstance is, you are FULLY loved, not in part. YOU are.
And finally…Book deal. My publisher appointments went great! Harper Collins, which is the Christian division of Zondervan, took both my one sheet and my book proposal. I was told that they only take things back with them on the plane if they are very interested. I also know that it can take as long as a year for them to take it through acquisitions etc., so I am patiently waiting to see what God wants. I absolutely loved the publisher, and I pray that I might get the chance to work with her one day. Listen though…I have no grand plans of being a published author. I know the chances of having a book published are very slim. I simply want to honor God, and if that means my book only reaches a few hands, THOSE are the hands God intended it for.
I am forever grateful for this experience, and I want to take what I’ve learned and GROW and GO! God has given me an even bigger desire to further His kingdom and love His people. I’m so thankful for God’s people who are faithful to love and pray for me. Thank you for following along on this Jesus Journey with me. I love you friends.